Marilyn

Just a quick Mother's Day post. Walking through Wal-ly-world today watching all the last minute shoppers hunting for cards and gifts, I felt numb. This being the 3rd mother's day without my mom, I still feel cheated. Cheated that I didn't have more time with her and angry that she didnt try harder to stick around. I don't blame her. I just wish that she wouldn't have felt so defeated by her life. I know she didn't feel that she had much of a life to speak of and I couldn't disagree more. As much as my sister and I tried to tell her so desperately in the months and days before she died, I can only hope she listened and realized what a truly wonderful, beautiful woman, mother, teacher, friend that she was to us. We didn't do the typical bubbly mother daughter stuff like shopping and doing nails together much but she instilled so much good in us and taught us love, honesty, trust, and how to care. She also taught us about family and tradition. Mommy was the best at making things like holidays and birthdays special. For as much or as little she had at times, she always found a way. I have carried that on with my children. She was a terrific grammy to them when she was here and her wisdom and love is still in their hearts. I will always have the most beautiful memories of my mom in my mind and heart and her love is truly always with me.